Message to my sons kris and Michael

To my sons  Kris and Michael.

I wish you

         the strength to

face challenges

        with Confidence

along with the

       Wisdom to 

choose your

       Battles

          carefully....

I wish you 

        adventure on

Your Journey

         and may you stop

to help

         someone

along the way........

          Listen to

               your heart

and take

          risks

               Carefully...

Remember how Much you 

               are both

LOVED

              and how

PROUD 

               I am of you both

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Mom's Journey

Quote - written by Neale D Walsch

The deepest secret is that life is not a process of discovery, but a process of creation. You are not discovering yourself, but creating yourself anew. Seek therefore, not to find out Who You Are, but seek to determine Who You Want to Be.
― Neale Donald Walsch

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Dedicated to the One's I Love and Cherish.

                                                                                                    

My Journal

                            - Dedicated to Me, Myself and I.

                            - Dedicated also to Kris Anthony Richards,
                              and Michael Deram Richards.

  What Reason do I have for writing this Journal?

My purpose of writing this Journal/blog is to record my story so that my boys can remember me and learn who I once was, through my eyes.

 I would like my boys to know how I view myself and for them to understand why our perception of life is different.

I would like to share with them my journey through
 interesting and challenging contexts of my personality.

My primary interest is to discover the real meaning or the central purpose of my life and how I attained it.

 I am a seeker of the truth.

We each have our truth that we must discover for ourselves.
http://www.bobbieann.net/Introduction.html

The truth of who we are and why we are who we are. Once we uncover this truth, we can move on to become the person that we WANT to be. http://www.bobbieann.net/Introduction.html

 What is the reality of who we are?

 Who am I?

What is the truth of why we are here on earth? 

What do I believe?

What engages my passion?

What brings tears of gratitude?

And joy to my eyes?

Do I know myself?

Or have I lost myself?

What were my childhood interests?

What were my childhood dreams?

What are my values, goals and lifestyle choices?

I want to use my journal as means of self-expression, and self-awareness,

This journal is going to be my companion on the road to self-discovery
and as a productive recovery tool.

I believe and hope that once I have written down my feelings and thoughts, it will help me clarify things in my mind.

I want to change many things about myself and how I view others and the world.

I want to attempt to develop new insights about myself.
I also hope that my story might help others who are facing the hardships that I have had to live through.
I will use my journal to write my thoughts and feelings to aid me with my emotional pain and recovery.

I will write about my going concerns.

The main challenges and lessons that I am currently working on and how I am handling them to date.

I enjoy investigating and learning what I want to know and then I like to share those gems of knowledge with others by publishing information on my blog.

I won't try to fob you off by saying I am a Personal Development expert.

But what I will claim is to be is a student of life who loves to learn and research and discover new things to help with my Self Growth.
My writing not only comes from research but also from life experience, thinking, questioning and observing.

 It is written from Memory to the best of my recollection and from the Heart.

My whole life has been a search for Meaning, Purpose & completeness

। search for a more meaningful, balanced life with personal peace of mind.

All my life I have lived in this great ocean of life searching for that something that would fill the empty feeling that I feel I have carried with me since childhood. I yearn for something that I cannot see but know exists. i can't ignore this feeling as it cries out to me day and night.

I have O.C.P.D(Obsessive,Compulsive Personality Disorder) and I am a perfectionist. I spent all my time cleaning and when I am not cleaning I spend my time on one of my other obsessions. But I feel that I was put on this earth to be more than just a cleaner. I do believe there must be a purpose for me being here. Why was i given intelligence if all I am meant to do is clean.? That makes no sense.

So against all odds I am on my journey - a journey of discovery.

it begins as all Journey's do - with one single step.

- a simple moment of choice.

There are so many things I don't understand.
 I lack a higher Perspective.

At the moment I am weary. I feel like I have travelled so far only to end up further back. I feel exhausted and beaten.

I have so many obstacles in my way - Compulsions,Obsessions and Addictions. My Thoughts, the conscious and the unconcious ones.

Fear is what stops me moving forward and I know this is only      False  Evidence Appearing Real.

Being intelligent helps me to understand that I must make these changes if I ever want to find peace, Love and myself.

I need to follow the path that will lead me to My Awakened Self of Consciousness.

I want and yearn to discover the truth of my existence.